The Drunken Baby Stage
Years ago, before my own kids were in school, my friend and I owned a daycare.
We had kids of all preschool ages, but we had a certain favorite stage. It was the toddler stage.
We called it the drunken baby stage.
They walked around like they had a few too many, and then fell down or ran smack into something. They either giggled or cried, but one of us would help them up and set them on their way again.
After guiding them to the right and safe path, they usually fell down about two minutes later, and eventually we grew weary and just let them stay there on the floor.
That pretty much sums up how I feel about being a Christian. Except He never seems weary of picking me back up.
Oh I am not graceful, and I never will be--which is why I am so thankful for His grace that covers me. Let me tell you friends, if you often feel like you are mud on holy boots, I can totally relate.
This is true both in my physical walking and in my faith. I get really steady on my feet sometimes and then I fall down--or run smack into temptation.
Temptation to gossip or to binge eat, oh there are many that snare me. Some days I stay right by his side and other days, I fall down.
Just like a toddler.
We all struggle and go through this toddler stage with God. I know that nothing good lives in me in my sinful nature, and I am certainly not alone.
Paul struggled like this, and that is because we all fall short in the glory of God.
You know though, every single one of those little toddlers grew stronger and stronger because they keep getting back up to take another step.
They finally walked with confidence. Now they can dance.
That's where our journey with God takes us--to joy.
Paul did not stop where he was, instead he kept seeking God and his legs got stronger and stronger (his spiritual ones at least). Paul shows us that victory will be found for those who just keep on moving forward.
As I keep going I feel myself gaining strength and confidence. I keep seeking His guidance and I am beginning to learn who He is, and through that, I am learning to walk.
I still fall down a lot, and I always will.
But still, I am starting to dance.